i cnt forget you shona..........please come back.................

its feb 2nd 2010 10:49 pm....................my cell ringd once again......n it was shona calling..................my heart started beating again.............i had msgd her 2 hrs ago dat i m missing u a lot n wish i cld hear u...............but i nvr thaught dta she is gonna call.............with tera in my eyes i looked towrds da cell................ionce i thaught she wld again say some wrds........dat hurt me da most.........buti den decided to pik just coz i wntd to hear her..................when i heard her...........saying hello................i knw wt i felt............i cnt evn describe it in words................she said......kaise ho??i said thk hu...........ghar pe sab kaise hain???i said thk hain............i ddint had ny wrds to say to her..........v bth were silent for a while den i askd aap kaise ho??she said m fine....she askd koi zaruri bata karni thi?? i said nahi aise hi bus...............den she said ohk den bye.........gdnt............n put it down.................but my heart whosz waiting for her since more den 1 yr cried whole night...............just coz khushi to thi k she called but dukh bhi tha k sab kuch jaante hue bhi wo anjaan thi.............uski khushi k liye meine apni zindagi girwi rakh to di hai............par ye keemat bahot baadi hai.............kya malum ye zindagi fir mile na mile...................bus wo khush rahe.............aajkal sabse juth bolne laga hu...............preeti se bhi............usne komal ma'am ko bta diya hai..............i wld also nvr had hidden nythng frm dem................par jo mein apne seene me dabata ja raha hu...........wo zeher ek din muje ghut ghut kar marne par majbur kar dega...........par uski khushi k liye jo bhi hoga mujse i wil do it...................use zara bhi andaza nahi hai k usne kisi ko tod diya hai.................but m happy dat shez happy..............nyways shona..................m missing u n will miss u 4ever....................